i almost did a stupid thing today.
i was feeling so achy the whole morning, i could actually feel my uterus contract! by noon, i was so bothered that, while doing emails, this website address --- www.passion.com -- just entered my mind.
i think i remember an invitation email i got from that site long ago, which got delivered to my bulk folder. i remember being amused that such a site existed, that people really registered there and met other people for... well... you know... to soothe their aches.
well anyway, i checked it out... and then signed up for a free membership... and browsing all those profiles... i started thinking: why not meet guys anonymously and discreetly in a nearby city (not here in mine, of course! that would be suicide!)... and i clicked on a few profiles to make winks...
but of course, since my profile was up for review and wont be available for 48 hours yet, i didnt get any responses.
which was a good thing.
because there was one profile there in the next city with his cellphone number as his handle. i started composing a text message to him... but then i thought twice about having a stranger get hold of my cellphone number... so i decided to wait until my profile got approved so i can just communicate with him via email for a while...
anyway, as i couldn't do anything else to alleviate the ache, i did the habitual thing--self help, as always. (oooh what a fever i found my self in!)
and then i drove back to work.
tonight, after i got home, and having gotten hold of my senses again, i realized how dangerously foolish i had been. i quickly erased my profile and account there, as well as the few emails ive received from the site already. i suddenly felt so dirty!!!
oh i am so pathetic.