i went straight to the shower, took off my contacts, and changed into my favorite nightie without the underwear get-up. yes, at 4 p.m. : )
as i sat there on the bed, toweling my self, i was struck by a strange moment of calm recognition--
this is my life now, and it is good.
heck, for all the wild rides ive taken, it has turned out good!
my time is more my own now, the kids and i are healthy and safe and have enough for our needs, and we're thriving as we flex all our spiritual, mental, emotional and physical muscles just growing and blossoming forth every day, as we were always meant to be.
even since i re-started my Manifesting studies and Silva meditations, too, i've found that i am more ... centered... calmer.... less vulnerable to negativity, whether from others or from my own self-talk.
for the first time in my life, i can confidently say-- i have no problems!
(knock on wood!) heehee... just to be sure.
and then a little sneaky thought reminded me of how i was even just a year before, so stressed, so close to burn-out. how dare i can be so different now?! how dare i?!!!
and then i started getting depressed that i am not depressed right now. : ( figure that one out.
look what crazy havoc one sneaky discouraging thought can do.
i actually started feeling down, questionning my own present state of calm and contentment and joy now!!!
ooh wow, where did that psychic whack come from???
but, the Universe is good.
as i sat down to open my emails, i received another forward from a long-ago friend whom i just recently actually thought of blocking because of the many cheesy forwards she sends, but this time, while reading her forwarded email, i felt like it was the Universe sitting me down and talking to me, reminding me of where i'm at --
A Most Wonderful day to you !
Albert Einstein once said, "Everyone has two choices.
We're either full of love, or full of fear."
This could not be more true. Look around you. I bet
you can determine whether someone is filled with love
or fear in a matter of seconds. People who are filled
with love (or at least getting there!) are optimistic,
excited, helping, listening, cheering go-getters it
shows on their face, in their spirit and seems to
refresh everyone they meet. Those filled with fear
are paranoid, pessimistic, envious, demanding,
overbearing downers and it shows on their face, in
their spirit and seems to suck the life out of everyone
Which one are you? Are you filled with fear or love?
Or are you a combination of the two? Which one do you
want to be?
That's a silly question. You want to be full of love.
So, why aren't we all full of love for everyone, including
Maybe it's just easier. You don't have to put forth much
of an effort to be a pessimist. Heck, the world seems to
be geared toward SATISFYING pessimists. Just listen to
the nightly news or read the morning paper. Nothing but
bad news and more bad news!
But I'm here to tell you that's no excuse. If you want
something, you have to work for it. Creating a positive
attitude based in love takes work especially when almost
everyone around you is telling you, "Why bother? The
sky is just going to fall in anyway."
Let them talk. Their negative Chicken Little belongs to
them. Not you. Change your attitude, and your outlook
changes with it. This, in turn, will change your life
and change your results.Period.
It just takes consistent and conscious effort to stay
in that place of warmth and positivity.
The opinions or negativity of other people do not have
to become your reality. You determine whether you allow
that to happen. It all starts in your mind. You need to
have a strong self-image and belief system within you
an impenetrable core based on a positive, optimistic,
anything-is-possible mindset so that when those negative
folks start jabbering, you can sit quietly within yourself
and know who you are.
When you're trying to be more optimistic and filled with
love, you can TRY to avoid those people who bring others down,
draining the very life-blood of hope and possibility, but . . .
unfortunately, this avoidance tactic rarely works.
They will find you! Once you have embraced a positive,
energy-filled, think-out-of-the-box, the-sky-is-not-the-limit
mindset, these people are somehow automatically drawn to you,
like bees to honey.
Don't worry. It's just a test. The Universe wants to know if
you're serious about your new way of living. Don't be afraid
of the test; just look these people square in the eye with
love and joy, and sit there within yourself knowing that
they sadly just don't get it
They don't understand that life wants them to be successful
and receive abundance. They believe that everything is a
struggle and there is only a limited supply that
everyone must fight for. They don't get it, and they won't
get you. They may even challenge the new you.
This hardly gives you the permission to look down on these
people, or think snidely of them in any way, shape or form.
You're not better than they are. You may be more consciously
aware and living in more abundance and gratitude, but that
doesn't make you better than them. Understand that these
people are suffering.
They are suffering from lack -- lack of self-esteem,
lack of energy, lack of love. You don't have to explain
your new attitude; they will sense it immediately. That's
what has drawn them to you in the first place. Your new self
is now radiating energy out and attracting people to you.
At the same time, their being drawn to you, does not mean
that you should spend all of your energy trying to change
them. In many cases, your kind- hearted efforts will
deplete your energy levels. The best way you can help these
people is to be an example of what can happen when your
mindset is based in love and positivity.
"Great people choose to be greater than their problems.
You have that potential too."
- Mark Victor Hansen
yeah, it must have been some psychic whack indeed.
but i think it came from some old part of me, who still can't get
over the fact that i've moved on, and have chosen to be a master
of my mind and my fate, instead of a victim.
i lay that suffering part of me to rest now.