J's back, and so suddenly.
we first met in november 2003. sparks flew, fireworks exploded, in a good way and in a sad way.
we clicked instantly; we also fought like hell. we were (and still are) both so frank and bullheaded.
in three weeks, it was over.
and today, more than a year later, he's back. just as suddenly.
we talked a very loooong talk.
some issues were resolved-- my intense jealousy, his pining for his dead former gf.
he wants to pick up where we left off. i held back. how dare he just barge into my life again and expect me to just accommodate him so easily???!!! the nerve.
we argued again.
and made up.
all in a span of half a day.
needless to say, the atmosphere is electric. suddenly, Life beckons again.
i am suddenly feeling so energized i feel like i could do a whole week's paperwork backlog in just one night, tonight.
hmmm... is this what my dream meant, about finally getting "It" at last?