Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Rebound

i am feeling much better now. tim's and kolzen's friendly comments helped; it's nice to know someone at least knows what you're going through and commiserates, in their own way. :) thank god for good friends!

then, too, i think it's the idea of "a way out" , even if it's only in my mind.

somehow, a situation doesn't seem to be so desperate and unchangeable if you can see a way out of it, even if it's only an idea.

that is why Sun Tzu says never to push a desperate man to the wall; always give your enemy a graceful way out, so the intensity of the situation becomes instantly diffused. : )

*****

so i started early today with renewed energies. i woke up at 2am and tackled my paperwork with the intent of a prize bull going for the kill. i only stopped when it was time to wake up the kids and go to work my self.

i'm back home now and am resuming the momentum. just having managed to get something done so early, while the rest of the world was still asleep, was a major mood booster in itself, too.

'tis true what they say, when you hit rock bottom, take heart, as there's no other way to go but up again! : D

forever the irrepresible optimist, that's me. : )

you can't put a cheerful woman down, huh? not for long, anyway.




4 comments:

Timothy said...

Good for you! And thank you! I was thinking that your leaving that one possition at work would help, but I know it has not ended yet, right? Depressed people like me can not afford mentally and spiritually to drop out. That is our first choice of coping, although it is not really coping.

Nine Lives said...

thanks, tim. yes although i submitted my resignation letter last jan. 3, it doesn't take effect until after my term ends on may 31, so in reality i am still doing the admin work im resigning from. : )

yes, in a way, i know how work can be salvation during depressed times too. the feeling of finishing some little task adds to the feeling of competence at least, which lifts the depressed feelings a little bit more each time.

Kolbe said...

If you ever reach burnout again... Just flip over to my place and wallow in some of my pain (my pain = your humor!)- I’m so retarded as to work 2 days straight without sleeping. I haven’t shaved in 2 weeks; I look like a mountain man ;)

I'm actually considering quitting a job I LOVE just to have a life again. Now THAT's burnout!

\\kolzen\

Nine Lives said...

awww... that bad huh?

well maybe it has come to a point where you have to choose between two loves... your work or your life?

hang in there, my friend. and follow your heart.